Hard times are ahead...

With my school career in the balance and heading towards and bitter end... It has just hit me that my life could dramatically change for the worse... Or, might it not be a terrible thing?

So yes, if I were to leave - any chance of going to uni is over... But is that what I really wanted? Towards late year 11, I really wanted to go off to Uni and study sport but as I went into sixth form, my thoughts began to change and with the string of injuries immediately slowed up my football and as time went on, dare I say - I lost the passion for it. Don't get me wrong, I still follow football on weekends and I'm still a huge Chelsea and Exeter fan but without being able to play it - it's just not the same.

More to the point, I've seen people leave school and never look back and gone on to do other things and become reasonably successful. In my opinion, life can teach you more than what school can ever teach you.. School just speeds up the process which OBVIOUSLY is a good thing.

On the other hand of course, I've seen people who haven't done so well. These people I'd like to believe that they were fuck up's from the word go and on average - they were/are.

I think in general it's about making the most of what you've got and I don't just mean grades. If I do eventually leave in the coming weeks, I think getting my FA coaching badges and hitting full-time work is the right thing to do and of course get money together to travel the USA.

If you look at overall, I think dropping out of school is a short term gain and a long term concern but with no direction in what I'm wanting to do. There is a tiny chance that they may let me continue on the one lesson but lets put it this way - I'm not hopeful.

On a brighter side of things, with my script 'Offscene' being put back because of this shite weather - I have the chance to film my music video 'Liquid Confidence' by YouMeAtSix on Saturday which should be a real good laugh, hopefully be up on Facebook or Youtube next week sometime.

Ta taaa!