Merry Xmas!

Howdy!

Christmas is in like 4 days and I know many of us complain we're not exactly in the mood but either way, with all the stress that comes with it and me being someone else who's not in the xmas spirit, I'm still gonna wish you all an AWESOME xmas because apparently people read this and I love you for it so yeah, merry xmas in whatever circumstances.

Xmas is a weird little thing, you everything/anyone you've lost in life seems to come rushing back to your head and that's definitely hard for obvious reasons.. For me, this year's going to be different, it's the first since my parents split, my dad's in Afghan so he's not here and there are thousands of people who are the same. At the same time, all these things that come back to you to make you realise that you miss them doesn't have to be a bad thing, it's also a new start after xmas (technically new years but i'm not splitting hair) so just enjoy whatever you get and to sound a little cheesy, 'do it for them' and you'll think much more positively things and hopefully enjoy yourself.

Merry xmas, LOVE LOVE.

Half Mile Heights split.

Hey guys!
As Facebook says, my band Half Mile Heights has split and because we were in very early stages, we're not going to make a huge deal about it, so yeah!

There isn't much to it at all, it was a complete time issues. We're still all best friends and all that, we just didn't have the time to work together.

For the future, I want to start a new band at some point early in the new year. Lewis is thinking about a solo drum thing, Adam is setting up a new hardcore band and Gocher is going to concentrate on his producing and guitar course at college.

If anyone is interested in starting a band with me that already has serious ideas already brewing, speak to me and I'll tell you more about it and see if you're interested after hearing the ideas. Don't hold back :)

Cheers x

Lyrics..

'If I had a chance for another try, I wouldn't change a thing - it's made me all who I am inside'
Angels & Airwaves - Rite Of Spring


I think this song is so true (like pretty much all songs by AvA).
Obviously there are going to be minor bits that you would change but if you really really think about it, would you actually change anything? Because, the majority of people love themselves in a non arrogant way and technically, everything you go through makes you the person you are. Would you change that? I know I wouldn't, more and more I think that everything I've been through just makes me the person I am now and I love this person so much more than my former self, it's like my former self was a stepping stone.

Also, second favourite lyric of the day and again, Angels & Airwaves..
'Do you feel like shine in the darkest of nights?'

Numbers game

23004 - you're awesome, my distant friend! Talk to you here n there, always coooool

10000000000000009 - you're an angry person, opinionated and again - ANGRY. Nahh, you're lovelyyyy though :) x

72 - had some wicked times with you and things these days are a lot better than what some people would have x

96 - equally my best friend, been there through numerous things and what we're setting out to achieve could be huge.

69 - kinky bitch, you occasionally annoy me (who doesn't though?) but i love you! you're such a funny girl and all the sex puns (even this number) cracks me up! xx

6631 - you're incredibly pretty, i told your friend that and she seemed to just take the piss! you're lovely though :) xx

21 - you're wicked! i don't feel i know you anymore but if you're the same, you're lovely! x

194 - you legend! nothing short of comical genius, all this stuff like 'pottsy' n all that has come from, you genius!

123345 - HA! ain't seen you in ages, we used to be like best mates in year 10 and 11, miss you man x

111 - you're so over dramatic about some things!! BUT - you have a heart of gold

77874694894499 - tbh mate, you're a fucking legend, first person i met at college and been good mates with you since i got there. i remember just hanging out on the first day, standing there saying 'i don't have a clue who any of these people are'.. 'me either haha'

666 - you beast, such a down to earth guy. glad i met you man x

46 - fucking amazing, beautiful, lovely, can't find the words to describe you. I know for obvious reasons with distance but I do geniunly mean that. if you lived closer, i'd be interested in you! :) xx

What's the deal?

What's the deal with 'leagues' when it comes to genders and relationships?

Yes, I am back on relationships again but I really don't follow it. It's not acceptable but it would be hypocrite of me if I were to say it's not right for a 'model in the making' to be in a relationship with some sort of ogre because I think in a relationship or to like someone, it's not fully built on personalities, there is definitely a huge pull with being attracted to someone because that's the first thing you see, you can't see a personality (obviously). You approach them thinking they look nice/hot/beautiful/etc and you speak to them.

What I'm speaking of though is when someone knows them, get's along with them well and then to completely rule out being in a relationship with them because they consider themselves as could get someone better or something along them lines, whether they say it out loud or they keep it to themselves.. Everyone is guilty to it to a degree and I think people would agree if they were being 100% honest with themselves.. I have been and everyone else has.

I think it's to do with peer pressure that's gone on over time because as an example, I'm not sure but I think I may like someone who I guess some people would look at and say I could get them and some people say I couldn't and I think people who are either jealous or close to them will say things to them that are along the lines of 'you could do better' or 'not in your league', even if it's not that straight forward and blunt but over time, people do start to think that - no matter how well they get along with the other person and probably could be a fit.

But, just for the record - I'm not including whether you can actually like them or not because obviously if you don't, what can you do? haha!

I just reckon people should give more people a chance and I think there would be a lot of people who would surprise themselves.

On a slightly more random note - if you like someone and you see them being close to the opposite gender who you know they're not 'good friends' with, it's not bad if you envy it if you'd never tell them or do anything about it because 1) you have no right to and 2) because you're not a prick? Does that like mean anything or something? I'm a little clueless sometimes.

xx

Mixed feelings

I hate mixed feelings on things? I wish somethings could just be simple where you didn't have to decide and you know the right thing to do, or at least the most interesting thing. Of course, I'm talking about a perfect which does not exist haha!

It's not really what could go wrong or be bad? It's more stuck in limbo and not knowing because the anticipation kills you, I'm usually good with decisions unless they're something that really could effect me and this is the one time I don't strive under pressure. I'm all discombobulated because i'm actually under no pressure what-so-ever, it just feels like it and it's not pleasing.

On lighter news, where's the snow!? I think whoever is up there ^ has mixed feelings on us too, you gonna give us some, big guy?

Also, saw a wicked quote that I put as my status and I think it says a lot about people who have been in crap, Tom Delonge again speaaaaaaks to us people. (I reckon he's God.. yes I'm a little bit obsessed). All seriousness though;

'Do you believe everything happens for a reason? Then you close your eyes, do you see the future? And if you could escape from your past, would you be ready for the next adventure?'

xx