'Haters Gonna Hate!'

I'm looking forward to college next year. It's going to be.. Interesting. It's something I'm caught in, I'm keen to move on and continue doing something that I'm good at but at the same time, the idea of being stuck in the 'college years' for so much longer is always nagging away at the back on mind. It shouldn't bother me but it does, which brings me on to my next point.

I guess I've never been too great at expressing feelings too well, so I tend to write them down. Like now, right now and many other occasions on here. It's a strange thing to how I use this blog, I mean, it's so public and I do share it on facebook (for 90%) of things. I was surprised that quite a few people read it which I mentioned before but I always thought that was rad but it also has it's benefits being public, mainly because I can put something on here and if people read it, they might understand why I might react to a certain situation.

What bugs me about it, is that I still have to put boundaries on here. For example, I still feel I have to write things on here to sort of please others, in a sense where I don't want to offend people. Then it occured to me that yes, I do write things on here that people may not agree with and share it on facebook, in some aspect, I can see why people would be peeved if I offended something or someone on here but also at the same time, it clicked to me, this is my space. Yes, I put it up on facebook but I certainly don't ask people to read it, I once got labelled as someone who writes a fuck load of shit on here to get attention which is completely wrong. I mean, as I said previously, if I wanted people to give me attention, I'd be like some other mugs on facebook that put depressive little statuses up about how they're upset and depressed. Okay, I've done this a couple of times but in my defence, have you seen the amount of statuses I put up? I probably have done it once every thousand times, like yesterday about having a down day about my vocals, don't get me wrong, I wasn't asking people to comment on saying 'oh no, just keep trying, you'll come good or something', it was simply putting it up there but then I kinda regretted it after, I couldn't help but feel so douchey after I posted it. On here though, I can post shit where I can write that because it's 100% optional to read it and I don't need people to comment shit stuff on it and if they do, it's their choice but a lot of the time I don't and I just get a 'like' for it, which is cool; it sorter shows people read it but also shows that they don't need to comment on it so I'm not looking for attention. Anyway, from now on, I'm gonna be writing shit on here that I couldn't give a fuck what people think of it. Whether they think I'm being a depressive, a wanker, egotistical, etc.. Because my answer to you is, if you want to think that about me after reading a blog post, then fine, but don't give me shit about it when it was 100% your choice to read it.

Finally for this part, I had to post that because I'm about to write some stuff that people might label or whatever in another post.