So many people I used to hang out with everyday at school or at parties and things are the people I never see any more. It's sort of a sad thought really but then at the same time, it was inevitable but it's funny how when you're back in year eleven and prior to that, you never think this will happen.
People I used to be friends with in school have moved to different parts of the country to go to university and some people are just generally working and aren't really about to be seen these days. What's weird is I can remember sitting in shitty assemblies with Mr Williams talking about crap that nobody could really give a shit about and looking about as we were all wearing our uniforms and not even thinking about uni and things, I remember those 'days' like it was yesterday.
To be fair, some people are still in sixth form but just because they're still there, they're almost like completely different people, literally strangers to what I used to know them. Even people I see around college who I used to go to school with are just completely different people now. Even myself, okay, I'm technically two years behind everyone but I'm totally different because I've finally sorted myself out, like the other people I used to be good friends with when they first went into sixth form. It's a wicked place to be, even if I'm two years behind.
I was on Twitter and noticed a couple of my friends who for the life of me, could never imagine driving both driving. It's insane. Those guys driving is so far away from when we used to hang out playing football in year ten and eleven.
Aside from that, everyone's social groups seems different. When you're in school, you're surrounded by large amounts of people but when you go passed year eleven, it seems you narrow it down to certain people. A lot of the time it's the same people who previously hung out with, but it's only one or two people from the actual group you see very often. It's quite cool really, because I always think that you can know so many people but the people you can fully trust and things, you can count on your fingers, even if you have seven hundred odd facebook friends. From another angle, I also think it's really interesting to see who people actually end up mainly being with, and a lot of the time, it's not even a case of "shows how good of a friend they were", it's just growing up. You never see adults hanging out with a huge amounts of people, they might know a lot of people but only really see certain people and I think that's already happening to people my age, I guess I didn't see it happening this early but I suppose you never really can predict when it'll happen because you haven't lived a life previously to know.
I think it's quite funny how I've ended up talking to a lot of people I never imagined myself talking to ages ago more than I do to people I used to hang around with. I know when you get older, you're passion for things becomes a lot more narrower. When you're younger, you sort of love everything but as you begin to leave your 'school years', your interests just sort of narrow down and then you end up being far more compatible with people who share the same interests.
I guess I kinda find it a little sad, though. When you see people you used to be so close with and now when you see them, they feel like strangers. Most recently, I've seen Patrick Feeney a couple of times, I used to have such a fucking time with him and now I barely see him, fortunately, in this case, it wasn't awkward at all and we spoke like we never had not hung out, although there was a lot of 'catch-up' talk, not just general goings on talk. But I know other cases where you see people and you may say hello but that's it, and in all honestly, I find it more awkward when it's just hello.
For the position I find myself in now, I'm very happy with the kinda way my social scenery is. Sure, I'd love to have more parties and things and I'm sure things like that will pop back up now I'm back at college, but from day-to-day, I consider my best mates to be; Matty Urquhart, James Lynn, Adam White, Anna Pincombe, Hal Dimond and Adam Jacks. I definitely still include Lewis and Gocher still in there, of course, they're like my brothers but I just don't see them much any more which is a real shame so naturally, it makes us grow apart but I still love those guys.
I've also noticed the way I personally feel on relationships with people that they become ever so strong, yet so fragile. I think whether it's a girlfriend/boyfriend or a very close friendship, I think things can be very strong but also has a fragile edge to it, especially if you have left education altogether because you're left with a couple of close friends and because a lot of the time, they are your close friends and you don't have a huge amount more (compared to when you were at school) so the friendship can become a little 'tedious' at times and things can just spiral and cause tension.
It's the same in relationships, I find relationships as you get older become mature but yet fragile too, I think naturally you see each other differently and act differently which makes things a lot different to when you're in education. If you see too much of each other, things become shakey and can brake and you can also have problems with work and things so you might not see each other as much which again makes things shakey.
It's amazing how much can change in just two and a bit years. I guess this is growing up..
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