Since posting that blog yesterday, I must have had about 6-8 people complimenting on it and stuff and if I'm honest, I know a few people read this blog but I didn't expect more than one or two. Little scary though because a couple have said that they get inspired by these which has literally blown my mind because I never really set out to do that.. With this blog anyway. Ahh! It's such a motivator to make me go on and do big things, it's amazing what friends and people can do for you as a person so anyone who is reading this, thank you so much! If you think this is over the top.. Fuck you! This has done me wonders, so again - thank you!!
Next, I had a parents liaison meeting with my tutor and I was literally rained with praise, it's so scary. Even Jess, my other teacher stepped it and covered me with glory. I'm literally, so over-the-moon right now because she was saying things like 'I speak the most and because of that, I'm the focal point', I influence the whole group and when I work, everyone works. I don't know what this is, but I'm literally blown away by this and no, it's not like I'm trying to gloat about any of this I'm just literally so buzzed by it. One special mention which has literally really made me incredibly happy is that apparently (for people in our group will know) Terry, the quiet lad who keeps himself to himself was apparently on the verge of leaving because he felt quite left out or something along them lines, apparently my encouraging him and in Jess' words 'influencing' him and made him really come out of his shell, he talks more, he's easier to get a long with which I'm so happy about because our group being so charismatic, I can't stand the thought of someone being all quiet and feeling left out because that would be so lonely, especially in our loud and crazy group so I tried to get him involved, talk to him, sit next to him and I'm proper happy that what I'm doing is actually helping him because he's such a cool lad, even if he is incredibly quiet and timid. I feel so good right now because of all these things they were saying about having a natural ability to be so confident but also be so comforting and tender towards people and apparently that can't be taught. It makes me ask a question, this year may have been so traumatic, but has it been worth it? I'm really starting to ask myself that question? As you may know (from a previous blog) that I'm a strong believer in fate only we have more control over it than we think. Maybe this is fate? Maybe all this shit I've/We've been through was meant to happen to make me who I am now? I would love to know and I think the answers becoming clearer by the day.
Also, to top this day off.. My dad has a job in Afghan! After all this traumatic stuff that's happened in the last year with being crushed and splitting up with my mum - It's finally paid off!! Such great news, a little nervous because of where he is but just got to try and move passed that.
This is sheer proof that no matter what crap you go through, even if it's the worst thing ever and literally can't see the light at the end of the tunnel - if you believe that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You will find it, I know and so do millions of other people on this planet and only you can truly believe whether there is a light at the end of the tunnel, you believe it - it will be there :)
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